For a good time call.... 2024-05-21, 12:03 a.m.

Oh, this poor girl that is so lost in other's perceptions. I wish I could hug you right now and spin you around ten times and set you in a different direction. He was absolutely not worth it, that vampire that sucked two decades of life out of you......he is now vanquished, he showed you what he really was and in your rare moment of strength you broke free, yet you languish. You create an altar to the man you thought he could be and you preach that to your children because you don't want them to feel the same, but: you. can't. fix. protect. change. try to create a new narrative that hurts less...and now, I can see that he was never even the one who held the power. All that came from me, all that energy. I was the battery, the sun, the moving electrons that drove it all. And I keep putting myself into this same role: out of familiarity? Spite? Self harm? I can be so much more, I AM so much more, but I am never the main character in my story. Why can't I just choose myself? Would it be such a terrible thing to shine? I know feel think imagine hum vibrate my success, I just need to pick up the phone and dial the number to connect.

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